"Write the bad things that are done to you in sand, but write the good things that happen to you on a piece of marble. " It's days like today that this proverb really speaks to me."I have to say after today, it got me wondering that everything is truly temporary, it all goes away eventually. What I found in law school is that there are a lot of volatile personalities. People want to do things they way they want to do it and it most definitely turns into the "it's my way or the highway" perspective. It's a very narrow way of looking at things and it tends to cause a lot of problems. I guess you can say I have had my fair share of being wronged. A lot of times I keep it close to my heart because I don't have time to recharge my batteries I have to come and see those people every single day. Then something happened tonight where I realized something important that will not only get me through law school but life: Just let it go.
I admit, I have a lot pride. I have high expectations of myself and of others. While it is disappointing that many people you come across in your life do not meet your expectations, I have come to realize that holding on that disappointment doesn't really give you the chance to live. It fact you actually stop living because of it. I was in a meeting and I took myself out of the situation and watched like a spectator and I wondered to myself is this a big deal? Why does this keep happening? Must can be done to stop this so we can live life? I don't have the answer but I know everyone has to kind of reach the same conclusion before they can move forward.
I learned that I let a lot bring me down but always managed to get myself back up. However, I learned that I shouldn't have to always do that, but rather not let it get to me. I think living on my own in another state gives me a crash course in understanding this concept.
I think to those that only see the world in a certain well that's unfortunate you'll never have the chance to live life, ever and always playing catch up to live a full and engaging life. On a Kairos retreat I went on, we had an exercise where we had a list of values and we had rank the ones that were most important to us at the time of ranking. After Kairos, I continued to do that every year on my birthday to see what I really wanted out of myself and from life. I stopped doing it when I started law school. That's unfortunate because I really started to find that the little things got to me, lost focus and really didn't know what was going on. However, I remember the value I always ranked consistently high was "Having an exciting life." I think the only way for that to happy is to actually live. I learned finally that you can never change people. You either take them or leave them as they are. You just cannot live life through others because then you will never live.
I guess from this day forward, I will how my new approach works out, I am hoping that life will be exciting for more good reasons than bad
